INTHESTARS.

For days my daily forecast (as far as astrology) has said that I am going to default a lot of my emotions on remember how good things used to be. From there, they said not to waste that energy in reminiscing on how things were, and let memories be just that: Memories.

I think my daily forecast at times make me believe in messages in the stars more and more. I would say that I am pretty convinced in astrology, mostly because the role that it has played in my relationships with people have been very true. Not to mention how astrology has outlined my life, which has also been very true.

I feel like lately I have been on kind of another spiritual journey. After all of what has happened over the past year, it's expected that one kind of re-establishes their values and what exactly they want to do with their lives. Traumatic experiences really only shape us for the better and all we can really do with them is collect it as an experience and move forward. Just keep moving on.

My journey this time isn't really about my purpose in life, because I have a really tight belief in what I am supposed to do with my life. I think that my journey this time is kind of re-discovering how I am going to find that sense of happiness again. I am an overall pretty chill guy, but I'm complicated none the less. On my happy days, I'm still haunted by recent events in my life. I want to work on really coming to an end of the day and smiling for everything I am grateful for in life. Because there is so much. At times it's just hard not to get caught up in wishing that my father could be there to listen to my good days, or that this whole thing was just a little easier. It never will be. Which is fine. But I need to find a sense of peace and serenity within myself again. It's been gone for too long.

So how will I find it? How will I keep it? What makes me smile anymore? I need to find it one way or another. Re-reading a lot of my favorite books will help in the meantime, surrounding myself with new atmospheres and interesting new people will help me find a new sense of identity. I need to exhaust the tools I have to finding a new sense of who I am.

I am fortunate that I live in Brooklyn so I can still see the stars at night, they help me remember my inspirations. And as cheesy as it is, it reminds me that the sky is the limit.

I have the city at my hands. I should take time everyday to find out what I am going to take from it. I have so many idea's, but it's time for those ideas to leave my head and transfer into energy I am emitting.