ARCHIEVE 18

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

2008.
Current mood: restless
Out with the old, in with the new? It's foolish to think that time runs itself by our definitions of when it ends, and where it begins. Time is one continuous flow of just itself, time. A new year isn't going to clear all the mess from last year, away. January 1st isn't going to be a complete 180 from December 31st. Because although we like to define time, it won't define itself.

So why do we feel like new years bring new things? It must be hope. People hope if they had a bad year, that this year will be better. Or if last year was great, that this year will be even greater. We have to hold on and anticipate that something with happen. Will make things different.

The sad thing is. 2008 still exists. By standards of "time" and definitions..it has passed. But the elements that made up 2008 still exist. In today, in tomorrow, and in yesterday.

I never really make resolutions. Or at least I haven't. I don't think a new year should make people want to change, or alter. You should decide that yourself, on your own time. Don't wait until January 1st to start that diet, or quite smoking, or start walking everyday. Just do it. Don't plan it, just let it happen. Don't wait for a new year to make you want to change. If you really want to change. You won't wait. You will do.

I usually do a tribute to the year that has passed. But in all honesty, 2008 was a struggle. I was tested in every single way I possibly could. All my greatest fears, came true. And every other thing I thought wouldn't happen, did. It was like the olympics for my character. The ultimate challenge.

I will and would not take it back though. I learned a lot about myself and my limits. Or lack thereof. I do look back on 2008 with a few smiles. I did have some great laughs, some great times, but the majority of the time, was spent struggling.

However, I would like to thank every my friends and my family (All whom can judge for themselves if I am speaking to them). Thank you for helping 2008 be just a little bit easier. Every talk, laugh, hug, or time spent was great. You will never know how much it means to me.

So let's go get it. Full throttle ahead for "2009".