ARCHIEVE 11

Monday, October 06, 2008

Sometimes.
Current mood: thoughtful
My heart had never raced so fast in my life. I felt like I was walking into a pool of sharks. Hoping that I could be spared from the bite. I hoped the decision I made, was right.

Sometimes things just happen. Sometimes you feel it and that is all you need. Who can tell what decision is ever ultimately the best one to be made? We can never know. We can continue to wonder, "what if?", but those wonders will never turn into conclusions. Sometimes it's like the universe is just working together for things to happen. And others, it seems like the universe is falling apart.

We feel -and- we do. There are thoughts and actions. Half our life is probably spent thinking-when we should be doing. I did. Who knows if my actions will ever bite me in the ass, but I know it was the right thing to do at the time. Sometimes you can't just think because by the time conclusions can be made, there isn't an opportunity of action anymore.

I don't know what will happen. I guess that is half the excitement of it all. Knowing that every day there is something new to be done-to be said-to be thought.

It was a rough month. Some elements still exist in my life. But now it just feels like it never happened. It's as if it's this tiny memory in the back of my mind. I know it happened, but for what is going on now. It doesn't seem to accredit the time that has elapsed in the past month. It's like a childhood memory that needs a lot of encouragement to be remembered fully.

Sometimes we are just running all the time. Running to some kind of destination-some kind of point. There will be a point when our bodies just can't run anymore. Sometimes the best thing that can happen-is to turn around-take a break-and walk back.