You'll pretend I'm fine
When you know I'm really not
And I'll pretend that we still got a shot

now that I've hit bottom, it's time to reach the top.

TRUE

It's true to be careful what you wish for.

I'm not really complaining, but I have so much inspiration and so many idea's running through my head that I might explode.

I need to find an outlet.

All I want and have wanted in 2011 is to have inspiration pour out of me at such an alarming rate that it hurts.

I think I am starting to get what I wanted. Thank baby jesus.

I have been trying to re-assemble the songs I want to eventually record for demo's and eventually hopefully on an album.

It was difficult for me to kind of find the inspiration I needed last year to kind of look at my music with a critical eye and a creative eye and decide where I want to go, the directions I want to take it and what songs I want to have certain sounds on.

There are 4 songs that I definitely know can be really great. And I have about a million other songs that I have written that I am re-working.

The tricky thing is that I am such a perfectionist that I don't know if what I write is the best so I never feel like I can finish a song because I feel like I can make it better someday.

Oh well.

I just need to keep this inspiration running.