ARCHIEVE 8

Sunday, May 25, 2008

The only thing that stays the same, is change.
Current mood: thoughtful

Apparently I just kind of put in the back of my mind, how everyone in my life has changed so much over the course of 9 months.

With Steve's welcome home part, welcomed the sudden realization that the worlds of the lives that I surround myself with....have all been corrupted. Even though some things happen to you day-to-day, you kind of forget how much of an impact some events are. From divorce's to new adopted behaviors. We all kind of neglect the importance that some of these things have on some people's lives.

I just found it odd how many people in my life have just adopted the "it's okay, things will get better" motive on life. I am a firm believer in this motto, but I couldn't help to wonder. Even though I know from experience, that things do get better...but with time. Are people taking in this outlook on life as a sign of hope that they can someday, breakaway from this?

Also a discussion that I was talking to someone about this weekend. I used to tell myself that these infectious people that have corrupted this town are just a product of Rockland. That these types of people in high school were just people in high school. The more I realize that there will always be these types of people everywhere. Anywhere I look, I am sure I will find people that mimick the persona's I surround myself with everyday. It kind of just escaladed this whole discussion about re-incarnation. How many times can a soul be made until it starts to mirror ones that already exhist? How many times can you be original until you become manufactured?



Also with the entire weekend came the confrontation of the "real deal". How people tend to always put up a wall in public places, but when they go home, they morph into different people. How people have entire sides of themselves that people don't ever see. A new understanding on how people can be "fake". What we do in our down time can reflect the people we are. I just though it was so interesting how you see people everyday and you are given these assumptions on their lives. As you dig deeper and deeper you find out that there are trenches of emotions and behaviors that your assumptions could never detect. Are we becoming more honest people or are we just mastering how to be fake?

Another thing that was brought up, was repetition. Even in our everyday lives, exists behaviors we do in repetion.Whether it is brushing your teeth or victimizing yourself. We all have certain behaviors that we have nurtured into our lives. But what breaks certain cycles? Things like alcohol abuse and emotional tendencies, how many times do we have to repeat things until there is a need for change? I see people repeating the same destructive behaviors in their lives, constantly telling themselves how they wish they could change. What really pushes people to stop recycling and start throwing things away for good?

Needless to say, I have had a pretty intellectual weekend. The things I have come in contact with made me reflect a lot ..s of "life's questions". It has been very interesting to kind of sit back and think of the lives and life of my own. How I fit into all of these quesitons as well as my peers.