ARCHIEVE 6

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

"Because I see things now, in these memories"

The past.

The events that have come to mold the people we are today. The struggles and strives composed to make up a history of our lives.

I feel like I walked into a time portal today. Everything that I had forgotten about suddenly came back and hit me in the face. While Niomi decided to blog on "Diaryland", I remembered I had one...a million years ago. Reading this whole different person who identified with my name...took me back. From the way I wrote, to the lyrics I put in my profile. It was all a fossil in time...proof that those feelings were real. Proof that those events in my life...actually happened.

In all honesty, it AMAZES me....how much I have evolved as a person. It's something I always put in the back of my mind, but seeing it in my face.....was a reminder. It was a reminder of all the smiles I have shown, all the ... yes..tears I have cried, all the people I have be-friended, all the friendships that have ended, all my evolutions of style, different haircuts, "mother figures" in my life. All these things you forget about as soon as they are not an event in your life anymore.



It's strange how we do this as human beings. Why do we get so caught up in the present, that we forget where we have came from? Is it all part of staying "grounded"? But don't you find it weird that you don't think about these daily...only because they are not in your life anymore? What happens to the people that die...are they forever forgotten..except when those memories get sparked?



Anyways I am babbling. Thinking of my freshman year. After seeing that journal, it's almost as if I climbed in a time machine. I could suddenly remember all the feelings, the scents, the emotions...the struggles. 2005 was a very important year for me...it feels like yesterday now that I have been in those "moments" where everything comes back. But honestly...three years ago...THREE years! Where has time gone..? Anyone want to tell me ^___^