ARCHIEVE 5

Friday, May 02, 2008

"It’s just so hard to believe it’s over and it’s done"
Current mood: chill

The time has passed by so riddiculously fast, even though it seems as if it would last forever. As my last month of school rolls around, I find myself in denial about closing this chapter of my life. Thirteen years of comfort and having the same routine will be a terrifying addiction to break.

Graduation is the stepping stone into "the real world", wherever that may lead us. I am so thrilled to start the rest of my life, persue my dreams and become what I have always wanted to be. The passage seems so surreal though. Waking up and not going to RDHS and seeing the same people everday. All the faces of comfort I will miss seeing. I nearly barfed when I saw the senior scheduale, the outline of the ending chapter.

This has become such a fun and memorable chapter in my life. High school will forever hold it's special place in my heart. We all have to move on, but does it have to be so sudden? I remember sitting in class freshman year and complaining how it will be forever until I leave.

Senior year alone has been amazing. From Mrs.Bierenbaums class, to yearbook, to my deveopment of my sense of humor, to debates in Goverment & Economics, to Mrs. Smith and Niomi being best friends, to my AMAZING experience with cheering and my incredible team members, to all the personal struggles I have overcome, to my new gained independence, to my lunched by myself at ABC, to the afternoons of art club, to backstage laughs at the musical, to the cast parties that got out of hand, to singing spice girls with prom committee, to seeing the spice girls life and fufilling my childhood dream, to touching Geri Halliwell's hand, to my best year of fashion yet, to my walks with Niomi, to my supportive friends, to being caught dancing by Niomi's mom, to realizing what I finally have a passion for in life (what I live for), to the track team laughs, to doing nothing in Video Production, to the people who have been and left my life, to trying to overcome my family issues, to walks in the morning and going to the cafeteria and never buying anything, to paying Kathy back enormous sums of money, to the conventions I went to, the bus rides in the morning, to singing "Who Do You Think You Are" and "Stop" in the hallways everyday, to accepting things as they come and knowing we struggle and we strive....

And it's not even over yet.

I could not even possibly put down all the memories amassed in my high school career. Countless laughs, cries, struggles, strives, falls, climbs, friendships, relationships, decisions, consequences...I could go on

London will be great. It will be the getaway I have needed all my life. A place for me to work on what I want to become. A place for me to nurture my dreams and my hopes. I just hope that if I work hard enough, I will be rewarded. I am ready for the struggle and the work, just as long as I get there.

I will miss my friends, my aquaintences, my peers. Starting over will be so fresh, but so scary.



Other than graduation, I can honestly say I am in a good place. My friendships have never been stronger, my family has gotten tighter, and the new people in my life have been amazing to get to know. I am looking forward to see how things will play out.

Madonna and Mariah came out with new albums (my inner gay man channels in my love for these women) both amazing and addicting. =D Looking forward to both of their tours.

Maddox is doing amazing. I will be honest, I don't like little kids, but I love this baby..more than anything in the world. Not to be korny and cliche', he is just incredible.



So that's my life, updated. There isn't too much to talk about. College is still a process and a stress bubble, but it will be over soon, hopefully. In the spirit of graduation, I wrote a song I might sing at inspiration, I don't think I will post the lyrics now, just because I want some more feedback first. I will say though (not to toot my own horn) but I love it.



I hope everyone is doing great. And Take Care =D