Ignite the light

I'm not entirely convinced anyone knows how hard it is to write a good pop song. I've been writing songs since I was like, 8 years old (most those songs are lost in my mind or in some dump somewhere), but I have only written in the last 12 years, maybe 7 songs that I can see being great pop songs. So that is like, one good pop song every 2 years. Fuck. hahahaha. That is why artists usually CO-write songs with people, unless you are Lady GodGa, who basically can do everything, including part the red sea and invent a cure for cancer, all while writing a Hot 100 hit.

I will say though, since I've been 18, I have written like...30 songs, or something RIDICULOUS like that. Maybe 10 of them are great, or going in a great direction. But when I go back to look at them, I usually pull stuff that is hidden under all the shitty lyrics and use them to make a different song. I try to write down any idea or melody that pops into my head, because I'll never know when I can use it.

I've been working on "Echo" for like, a year now, it's finallllly something really great I think. It helps that I feel like I have discovered a recipe for a great chart topper. That is definitely incorporated in that song. But it has a lot of meaning to me, so it's been easy to write, but hard to get the message simply across in a song. And something that is easy for people to digest. America doesn't like to work to figure out a song meaning, well nobody does, unless you are a music buff like me.

I've been getting back on Piano and trying to motivate myself more. I asked my Dad to help me with motivation and determination and I definitely think he has. And I need it.

So I hope this motivation lives inside of me for a long time. I need a constant hunger, it's the only way I will get anything done. If I constantly want it. Every now and then just will not do, so I need it to be all the time. I want to want it so bad that it hurts and there is nothing else I can do BUT work at it.

Here's to hoping 2011 is a big year for me and my future.