WRNINGSGN.

Remember all my chatter about me feeling not connected to things? About never feeling grounded or emotionally attached. This is all true. But what's also true, is that I can never predict WHEN I will have an emotional outburst. They just happen, and I can't really control it, for the life of me.

So what triggered it today? I really couldn't tell you. I can never tell you, because I never know.

I am pretty happy with the life that I have now. Of course there are things I would love to change, but when I go to bed at night I am grateful for how things are.

But I do miss things.

And times like these, I miss them a lot.

Sometimes I wonder what I would give up, just to get that feeling again, what it used to feel like...because I don't think I have felt it in so long. I want to just have that again, very much so.

&&This is why I don't complain about being single, or praise it for that matter. I don't want to be a burden in someones life. I don't really want to expect people to have to put up with the complexity of the person that I am. Because it can be really inconvenient to know me.

Before I ramble, I am going to end it here.