I love good conversations and good talk. After a really great conversation last night, I kind of re-realized my ambitions and why I am even in NYC in the first place. It was good to feel the pure desperation for those goals again. call me a wannabee. But you can go fuck yourself. ^_^.

There are many people who are rooting for me to fail, as there is with anyone who is trying to better themselves. And there are many people who think I am wasting my time. Or that I should be in college instead of "wasting my life away". Did it ever occur to some people that people might want different paths in life?

Anyways. I have been enjoying NYC a lot and enjoying the simplicity of my life and just doing great New York things. But all of this will change soon. When I really start to get the ball rolling, as I am doing right now, pretty soon I won't be able to enjoy as much free time as I would like. But as my friend and I were saying, we make sacrifices in life. And the things that I will be willing to give up will hopefully be worth it when I do reach my goals.

I'm just looking forward to what I can do with myself. I know it's going to be really though and really discouraging at times, but fuck it, I would be more miserable not trying, than being upset at my failed efforts.

As Gaga would say, I would die if I was forbidden to make music.